Letting go over and over

Well, hello. It has been awhile so get comfortable for a little read.

Instead of painting, I have been dancing with scarcity and abundance.

I just read my last post and was embarrassed at how long-winded and wordy it was. Too much. So I am going minimal.

I have been expanding creatively and spiritually and enjoying a lot of growth.

I have been letting go of a lot, and sometimes it has been painful. But since I am using it as an opportunity for self- awareness, the pain is instructive and not quite as devastating.

At the end of 2013, my cat died. Last year I lost six jobs. Now I am homeless, after leaving my home and jobs in Sonoma county last month for a live-in caregiver job in the East Bay that fell through. If my friend did not allow me to stay at his place with my small pile of stuff ('for a very short time'), I would be sleeping in my truck on the street.

I have been working as an In Home Support Services caregiver since March 2014. My body can barely manage the work, and I am often exhausted, but I keep working. The money is OK, but not great. My friends have been helping me survive for the past three years. They are the reason I am still driving my truck, still have my stored possessions (artwork, household goods, art supplies and furniture) and still have my ability to feel somewhat secure in what little I have, even as it is being taken from me in small and large ways everyday. They have helped me find jobs and offered other resources I desperately needed. Their care has helped me more than anything I will ever do for them. And what my friends have done has helped the culture because they are keeping a culture creator alive and able to create another day. It is an incredible direct arts investment, and a win for everyone, really. I try to make sure anyone who helps me understands this.

I am making some art and exploring crowdfunding sites. 

I am continuing to look for a place to live and am hoping for a friendly and kind home. I keep believing I will find one soon. I am hoping to make some new good connections. Please let me know if you hear of something in the East Bay, San Francisco Bay area.

Since change is rapid, I will try to check in again soon with any updates. I am staying positive, for now.

Please let me know if you are interested in purchasing any cards, small art pieces etc. I can ship anywhere!
Thanks for your caring thoughts.